1. Not being the best thing for my child.
There is nothing in this world that feels worse than knowing that you can't provide the basic needs every child deserves for your own flesh and blood. It's absolutely heart-breaking. This is especially hard since this wasn't a teen pregnancy, but rather I was 24 when I had Brody. Why was I not at a place where I could take care of a child? Why was I at a place where I couldn't even provide for myself? This was a huge wake up call.
How I'm coping with it:
Instead of feeling sorry for myself, and moping, and continuing this pattern of getting nowhere in life, I allowed this to be my motivation. I intend to never get pregnant outside of marriage again, but if for some crazy reason it did happen, I wouldn't have to give another child away. I job searched like crazy-it was my full-time job to find a full-time job. And thankfully, I did! And it's one I thoroughly enjoy! I love going to work everyday!