You turned one today. I can't believe it has been a year already. Your mom sent me pictures of you smashing your cake. It looked like you were having a blast! After the way you were about the cookie when I saw you in December I am sure you were in heaven with a whole cake in front of you! And, ok, it's so not fair how photogenic you are. :) You take the cutest pictures. You look like a professional model at one year old-its crazy. I guess I can take some credit for that since I made you. You are already walking-good job! You are getting through several milestones already. Potty training-that one is going to be fun. I see you doing well at that one too though.
I've also had a lot happen in the past year and overcome a lot. I ran a 5k...with obstacles; it was a lot of work, but really fun. I started a new wonderful full-time job! I went over a year without dating-and enjoyed it! Then I met a guy and am in the first healthy, happy, balanced, Godly relationship I've ever had. It's a very nice change. He's pretty awesome. He treats me amazingly well!
I have a wonderful support group. My boyfriend, friends, family, and co-workers all asked how I was with today being your birthday. Joanna and Aunt Susie are in the hospital and they even thought of me. That was incredibly sweet! I greatly appreciate my loved ones and how supportive they have been through all of this. I miss you every single day. Your birthday is another day that I miss you and wish I could see you and play with you and make you laugh. However, I can't do that everyday. But someone is-you are laughing and playing and you feel safe and loved and secure and happy. So, although it's not easy being away from you. I am ok. God did a powerful, permanent healing work in my heart. That doesn't mean I don't love you or miss you or think about you-because I do. It just means that I have peace about where you are. I hope that makes sense to you.
I am so excited about all of your birthdays to come. I can't wait to see how you change and grow each year! I love you so much! Happy Birthday sweet boy!